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My second date was a lot less exciting than the first. It was with someone I met online again but this time, there wasn’t much chemistry when we spoke. The conversations were typical and we both kept them going in case we’d click once we met in person. We arranged to meet somewhere between our locations and I had to take the metro a fair distance. Even though I wasn’t very into them, I was still pretty nervous on the way. I would have made it on time to our meet but mid-way, I really had to pee so I stopped at a station that I knew had a bathroom. That took 10-15 minutes extra despite jogging because I had to go all the way to the other end where the metro station connected to the train station, where the restaurants and the bathrooms were. Knowing that I would be late made me even more anxious. I finally got to the station where we set the meet. I ran up to the ground level trying to be less late which made me sweaty and all red. I was hoping to reduce the redness I could feel on my face before seeing the person but I found them easily right away. We both looked at each other thinking, “Yeah, no, this isn’t going to work.” Neither one of us said it aloud though. There was no reason to. We agreed to go eat anyway as planned out of hunger. Naturally, when I went into my bag for my gloves, I dropped my gloves and my inhaler, which broke apart hitting the floor, making everything even more awkward. I picked up everything as fast as I could knowing that the person wanted to get the outing over with. We found a restaurant about a block away and forced conversation the whole time. The date from start to finish was just awkward. It wasn’t bad; just disappointing and awkward. I don’t remember much else except I think I had a hamburger. On the bright side, I didn’t have to worry about whether or not they’d kiss me afterwards so that saved me some anxiety.